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Things that “amuse” me #004

Kung ano man itong nararamdaman ko ngayon these past few weeks

I should really stop sending those meaningless text messages, huh?

See? This is that other side of me that you haven’t seen before. Mapanglait, madaling sumpungin. Pasensya na, I just didn’t bother showing this side since when I was part of that group. Simply put, I was all dressed up. 

Especially since apparently, I have to be a “role model” for those potentials. 

“What would they think if they see you posting profanity, or listening to these kinds of music, or acting like this?”

And then people have the audacity to ask me why I don’t show up anymore. How can one be oneself in such an environment? And I just know that there’s TONS who are not who they seem to be.

“I guess I could understand.”

HAH. Do you? Do you really? There are several levels beneath the simple words that I say. Do you know how easy it is to fake a “haha”. It’s second nature to me already. There’s subtle hints laced into what I say. It shouldn’t really matter; I’m just expecting too much again.

Expectations.

The bane of my existence. No matter how hard I drill this into my brain, it just doesn’t sink in. I was clearly duped when I bought the so-called permanent marker to write this note.

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I don’t really know how to end this. It is crudely written and organized to boot. Meh, I doubt anyone would even bother reading this.

September 27 2011 • 11·53 pm
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Things that “amuse” me #003

Boxing. To be more specific: gatherings gravitating towards boxing events
Simply put, these instances are the epitome of “Filipino Pride”. In my case, pride that borders racial discrimination. All I can do during such times is withdraw to my haven and dare not peek out until I’m positive that the said phenomenon has ended.

I guess it depends on whom I watch these events with. Although, I rarely watch such barbaric displays to begin with. I cannot fathom what they find to be amusing in such things. Then again, they wonder why I find anime so entertaining.

Chacun son goût.
September 17 2011 • 10·13 pm • 2 notes
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Things that “amuse” me #002

Staying up to the point when you start having these thoughts. Oh you know what I mean: the ones with tendrils that drill through your thickest, hardest walls. Thoughts armed with poison capable of seeping through the cracks in one’s defenses and corrodes one’s peace of mind.

This is what I get for staying up until 4 (well almost 4). It’s back to the same shit again: depressing thoughts galore! Huzzah

Stupid Minun for listening to those songs. No matter how enchanting the lyrics or the melody are, they will only serve to deepen the once-fading wounds.

Stupid Minun for entertaining those thoughts. They will never happen. Ever. So cease your train of thought. You ought to be sleeping right now. You have a big day (and an even grander night) in store for you.

But no. You inflicted this all on yourself. Because of your damned curiosity and optimism. Weren’t you warned before to discard those already? Now look who’s crying.

August 31 2011 • 04·11 am
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Things that “amuse” me #001

When people say they “miss” me and yet they do not put in any effort to hang out with me.

Bitch please. Don’t make me laugh any further.

Panindigan mo naman ang mga salitang lumalabas sa bibig mo. Kung namimiss mo nga ako, gumawa ka ng paraan. Sawa na kasi akong magpakatanga para makasama ka. Sawa na ako sa mga dahilan mo. Kapag gusto, napakaraming paraan para matupad yan. Pero kung ayaw, hah! Maraming dahilan.

August 29 2011 • 04·33 am • 2 notes
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